Issue #1 - i prayed for one but it doesn’t really mean that i’m ready. or maybe i am. so unsure. it came, and now i’m struggling. i don’t know how to handle it.

questions fill my mind. is it my own malice that gives color to things happening around me? am i taking things too personally? the answer would be a big yes, obviously. but i refuse to take it.
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Issue #2 - i know what normal is. normal means acceptable and usual. well, i know it would depend really on someone’s background — values, traditions, and what-have-yous. but normal won’t apply to what i have experienced.
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Issue #3 - my parents would always tell me to share whatever i have… but it’s a different thing when you share something with a person who’s shown you signs of admiration… it would have been better if i managed things voluntarily, but it was all more of an unwanted obligation. it’s funny. hmmm, not really… i wanna laugh it off, but that’s too fake of me. this isn’t that serious… yet! slowly, i can feel it creeping towards me. i guess it’s easier to just let things fly by, don’t you think?